April 2, 2009 at 7:06 am (Experiences)
This year started out rough for me. It looks as though the roller coaster ride of my life hasn’t reach it’s end, just yet. I lose one of my closest cousin and in the same week of such burden, I found out about a truth which was kept hidden away from me by the very person that I trusted most. It took a big hit on me. I was recovering from a broken heart and this brought me back to where it all started. All the pains that I felt back then came rushing back in. Destroying the reasons that I used to have to keep on smiling.
Yes, I find it so hard to smile right now. Life hasn’t been fair to me. I wanted to be strong, I’m striving to be one. Nobody wants to be on my shoes right now.
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September 12, 2008 at 3:09 am (Experiences)
Tags: doubt, life, shadow
There is a shadow hanging over me these past days. It may be of doubt of how things are going to work out. Is my life heading in the direction I wanted it to be? or is it not? I have always dreamed of a decent job, a wonderful family and a lovely wife.
5 months before, I would have confidently say to myself that I took the right path and that I made the right decision…
But today….I find it difficult to utter these words…for I am unsure of what my future holds….
I guess, I mess up along the way….
I’m no longer the man I was before, this I know. I may seem happy in the view of other people’s eyes. I may look strong and confident. But the truth is…I’m in pain and I’m bleeding inside. I feel alone when I’m at home, while riding my bike, while working and even sometimes when I’m with friends.
I wonder and ask myself, why? but still…the answer….is nowhere to be found…
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