There is a shadow hanging over me these past days. It may be of doubt of how things are going to work out. Is my life heading in the direction I wanted it to be? or is it not? I have always dreamed of a decent job, a wonderful family and a lovely wife.
5 months before, I would have confidently say to myself that I took the right path and that I made the right decision…
But today….I find it difficult to utter these words…for I am unsure of what my future holds….
I guess, I mess up along the way….
I’m no longer the man I was before, this I know. I may seem happy in the view of other people’s eyes. I may look strong and confident. But the truth is…I’m in pain and I’m bleeding inside. I feel alone when I’m at home, while riding my bike, while working and even sometimes when I’m with friends.
I wonder and ask myself, why? but still…the answer….is nowhere to be found…
Maria said,
November 17, 2008 at 12:42 pm
hmmn.. you’re not alone kiddo ‘
i felt this way sometimes….