April 2, 2009 at 7:06 am (Experiences)
This year started out rough for me. It looks as though the roller coaster ride of my life hasn’t reach it’s end, just yet. I lose one of my closest cousin and in the same week of such burden, I found out about a truth which was kept hidden away from me by the very person that I trusted most. It took a big hit on me. I was recovering from a broken heart and this brought me back to where it all started. All the pains that I felt back then came rushing back in. Destroying the reasons that I used to have to keep on smiling.
Yes, I find it so hard to smile right now. Life hasn’t been fair to me. I wanted to be strong, I’m striving to be one. Nobody wants to be on my shoes right now.
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September 17, 2008 at 5:28 am (Heart)
Tags: pain, sensitve
my girlfriend complains that i am being too sensitive. maybe she’s right and maybe she’s wrong. i dont deny nor agree to what she says. there are certain things that she sees in me that i dont see.
let me try to give you an idea of how i feel.
the truth is, i feel unimportant. why? she once told me that i am the least of her priorities in her busy life. am i being martyr for holding on? maybe. but i’m also just being honest with myself. i love her so much and that is the truth and thats why i stayed. its not being martyr or anything, i am just hoping that behind everything that she is right now, the woman i fell in love with is still there.
i’m holding on to the slimmest hope for love and of love.
now about being sensitive… i can’t teach my heart how to feel…all i could do is to make things less complicated and easy to understand to lighten the burden that i carry everyday…
…i guess everyone is sensitive….
when pain is done to you, by the very person you trusted your heart the most.
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September 12, 2008 at 3:09 am (Experiences)
Tags: doubt, life, shadow
There is a shadow hanging over me these past days. It may be of doubt of how things are going to work out. Is my life heading in the direction I wanted it to be? or is it not? I have always dreamed of a decent job, a wonderful family and a lovely wife.
5 months before, I would have confidently say to myself that I took the right path and that I made the right decision…
But today….I find it difficult to utter these words…for I am unsure of what my future holds….
I guess, I mess up along the way….
I’m no longer the man I was before, this I know. I may seem happy in the view of other people’s eyes. I may look strong and confident. But the truth is…I’m in pain and I’m bleeding inside. I feel alone when I’m at home, while riding my bike, while working and even sometimes when I’m with friends.
I wonder and ask myself, why? but still…the answer….is nowhere to be found…
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September 11, 2008 at 5:45 am (Mind)
It was a very busy day at work. When a friend of mine buzz me on my instant messager. She told me about her blog at wordpress.com. I visited her blogsite right away, and it impress me just enough for me to decide to make my own one. So I decided to join.
Now here I am on my first post. Not knowing what to write yet but is very much happy to have found the site.
This will be a start. From now on, Everything I write is a view of how the world is through my eyes.
Enjoy the ride…
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